I haven't seen snow for a long time.It was very warm last year.Sunday night I went out for supper ,the snow was not very big,just a little,disappeared and melted into water quickly after droping .This morning when I wake up,I found there was lots of snow.I can see white everywhere,trees,hills,passerby's coats.  It is so beautiful.

  Everybody was happy because of snow.They talked about the snow when they met.Although it's very cold today,the snow is welcome.Because snow,the air is so clear.The scene is more beautiful than before.The vegetables of fields will be more strong and healthy.The world is likely static.

 Tonight there is annual dinner in my company.There are a lot of awards.The highest award is a notebook,then LCD TV,DSC...I all like them very much.I always think I am not a fortunate person.But 2008 year is a special year.It snows in the beginning of 2008 year for twice.It's so specail.So I believe special thing will also occurred on me.I hope I can have a fortune.If won't ,it doens't matter.Sometimes small thing can change person's mood.Just like snow,I will be pleased for long time.

  2008 year is coming,the new year again and I am one year older than 2007 year.At the beginning of new year ,I am in good mood.I am happy because when I am in trouble,someone will encourage me,someone will find the materials to me .Although I haven't succeeded ,I believe my hard-working is valuable,I will succeed some day.

  New year ,new plan.So what's my objective?Now the only aim is to find a good job and can work in HangZhou,adapt the new environment ,live the normal life.

  I have written some articles in this blog and before today,no one give comment.Today I see the comment and I am very happy.Sometimes a little words can give me more courage.Maybe the person who wrote the comment didn't consider much,just say something what he wanted to say,but I got much.I am affected by environment,by people easily.I know it's not good.Be a person,should have though,mind by himself,shouldn't affect by others.But it's not easy to do.

  Anyway,in this new year,I will start my new life.I hope the trip is favoring.Keeping peace mood is helpful.

  The left thing is that read the notice again,recite the sentences,listen the tapes ,keep calm,be confident to meet the challenge.

 I have written English articles for night days,I also listen to English everyday.I don't know whether the level has improved.When I write something in English,I always can't use the right words to express my feeling ,but when I write  Chinese article,I can write long passage.I have forgotten a lot of English syntax.I can't make sure what I have written.After I look up the words in dictionary then I can write them down.I worry I make the syntax mistake,I am not confident of what I wrote.

 These days I study English hard,I am so tired.There are so much knowledge to learn.I can't make sure whether I make progress.I am not sure whether I can pass the interview next week.Sometimes I am very confident,I believe I can pass.Sometimes I doubt myself.I know I am too nervous.I regard it too important.Because I have no other choice.I have to continue to study,I wan't come true the dream.

  Maybe my English is still poor.I still write Chinese English.I don't care.Only if I can write,I can say.Others can see what I have said,what I have written.It's a process to make process。

  Today I find there are so much knowledge should I to study.Yesterday night I installed Test Director successfully and I should learn how to use it ,what features the TD has in short time.I should read the winrunner guid .Everyday I should listen English,write my realization in English;also I should busy on company's work.So many things I should to do.2007 will pass,2008 will com .Recall the whole 2007,although my life is still the same as 2006,I experience more than 2006 year.I am mature.I learn more knowledge in 2007,accumulate a lot of knowledge point.It's just for that I can do the thing that I like in 2008 year.I have more challenge to do in 2008 year.

  What's life?Life is that you should taste asid,sweet,bitter,hot.Life is nice.When you taste bitter and obtain gains,it's hard to describe the happiness.It's valuable.

Now I surround darkness,but one day I will meet the sunshine.Sun will rise in the near future.

 I decide to go to HangZhou next month .Right,I have to pay the trip expense and take a leave for one day.I don't care now.Even though I won't success,I have to try.Of course,I will contact with the person when I make sufficient preparation,especially English aspect.

 I look for the information about interviewed flow ,I obtain one information.Keep self-confidence and don't care much syntax ,open to say self-thought .In fact,only if you can see what the employer said,you express your thought,even word by word,you have the chance to enter.

 Reminiscing my ability and diligent study,I should believe I can enter their company.The next days,keep listening and writing and reading English.If I won't work to the company ,I can go to another better company.

 Though my performance is so bad,why should I hasitate?I asked someone who left before Spring Festival last year and he told me he got the whole bonus .So now I don't worry about I couldn't get the bonus if I leave before Spring Festival.

  Searching for a good company for one year.I want to end up the process quickly.During these long time,I can't eat well,sleep well and everyday study hard,learn all kinds of technology and skills.I am so tired.Continue to find the job,modify my resume ,confirm one company then leave.After Spring Festival,I can go to HangZhou and needn't come back.

 

  I pretend I don't care the result and tell others whether I get A or not,it's no sense.But today when I know the result ,I have no mood continue to work ,I stare at the word for a long time and read nothing.

  I know I am not happy.exactly to say,I am very angry the result.But it's the fact.

I make a decision,if M talk to me about the work performance,I will keep silence.What should I to say?I have tried my best to work but you still don't satisfy my work.

  Certainly,I will leave the company whether I get A or not .But the score present my payment.What I have done not accord to what I will get.How could I keep calm?

  I also know the performance examination just a form.There are a lot of persons who came the company earlier than me and only a little people can get the number.

 I also know my opinion and personality are different from the leader ,sometimes he have no idea  but to agree with my opinion...

  I know I should be modest in career and should not always show my outstanding abilites.

  I am very angry and not happy,but how could I to do?The one way to study hard and search new job,leave the environment .To a new environment ,open new life.

 

 I don't know what topic I can say.I work as the same.After work,read some articles in the internet.Until six o'clock ,I go to downstairs canteen fro supper.

 Tonight there is a film called apple in company.I just know the major actors are FanBingbing and TongDaiwei .Fan acted a worker who works in feet massage shop.She washed guests' feet.One day she was raped by a person acted by Liangjiahui.Tong is her boyfriend.When Tong know the thing ,he fights with Liang...

 I don't like the plot.I think it's meaningless for this kinds of plot.I don't want to see the film.

 But what can I spend the time now? Reading passages what I am interested,Writing words what I want to ,listening English topic or just think something .

  Some time later,one of colleagues who saw the film come back.I ask her why she come back so quickly.She told me the film is very disgusting.She doesn't like.

  Today I also have read some passages about software testing technology,such as white box test,black box test,grey box test,border test method and so on.It's so pity the articles are written in Chinese.I am very familar these concepts in Chinese,but I don't know how to say in English.Because oral English level is so low,I can't describe the testing concepts and ways clearly.How difficult to improve the English level.

 Now I don't know how to improve quickly.I just read ,write,listen as much as possible.Even if I don't have topic to write,I persist in writing.I think I will success on one day. 

 I have losted confidence about SSS company chances since last telephone interview.I was very disappointed because of losting the work chance.Untill today,I get fight again.I tell myself to forget the past thing and not too be strict to myself.But to my great surprise,this afternoon HR of that company called me again.She asked me whether I can go to her company to interview.I am so surprise .I don't have the confidence .I think my English is so poor that I couldn't pass the interview.Another way,I have asked for leave for more than three times this year and tomorrow I have an urgent project.I know it's hard to ask a leave.Of course,I am reluctant to quit the finally bonus.Then I wrote an email to HR and told her I won't come to her company...

  I don't want to quit the good chance ,but I know I can't join SSS because of my poor oral English level.I appreciate them to give me another chance.I have to quit.

  However,I decide to insist on studying English not only reading but also writing ,listening.If I have ability,I will find the good job.I believe I can come true my dream .I will achieve my objects.

  Fighting!

Start from today,start from the beginning.Don't care too much about the results,enjoy the course of study.Believe myself.Insist on study. Believe wonderful future will be come,everything will be ok! Forget before,cherish now and every minutes of future. Failure is not the end.Keeping work hard and success will come definitely . Don't forget and insist.