Today  is my birthday,I'm becoming older day by day,I will be 30 years old several years later,but i have nothing  seemly.

I'am very common worker,not career,low salary,so I have no house.Sometimes,I don't like go to work,study......at the same time,i like comfortable house ,beautiful clothes,delicious food,slap-up cosmetic and so on......

Before,I think maybe man like work,I can achive my dream life by my lover,but...

one day,I asked him ,do you like working continuely,he said,he like free life,sometime work ,sometime do the things he likes,such as take a outing.

At this time,i see,the equality between the man and the woman is not a slogan,it is a truth,the man and the woman have diffrent characters,but they have the same essens,they are all human beings,they both posess the anvantages and  disadvantages of the human beings.

In the realistic life,most man earn more money then woman,this only can illuminiate they have more superiority on body,the woman who earn less,there are two resons,one  is they have some external inferior position,one  is they don't make great efforts,because they think their husbands shuold take charge for their life.

After I see all the above,I know if I want come true my life in dreams,I must take a endeavor by myself...... 

 I have got blue mood  for some days.I know why,but  those resons are not resonable.Been thinking for a long time yesterday night,i said to myself "those are not important things ,you can live happily if you like,don't consider too much!".

But this morning,my mood  is blue still,i know it's my character mades me so,i can't change  it in one day.

I know i have many things to do ,but only give a little attention to my things.

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   Yesterday was  the five years anniversary of my amativeness.I had been expecting this day for sometims,I was imagining the beautiful roses,delicious foods,maybe some raki...

   Yesterday has gone,nothing had happened.I went home after off duty lonly,prepared super,simple super,cucumber,eggs,carrots,murphy.And then i waited and waited...it was very late,my boyfriend came back,with tired face.

    He is too busy these days,he is very tired,he needs rest,he wants rest,but he cannot.He said,i would have go home for rest,but i know i have wife at home...

    Yesterday had gone,forever.I didn't despair,i should have.Maybe i really grown up,i have known what is the living ,the commons living,work,money,house,car,baby,our love,without roses love,ricelove...