First I want to talk about the girl, the beautiful girl who impress me a lot in the days.
Last year, I met her, the first impression was her optimism, her smile. what a good girl. If i have a girl friend like her i will be so happy I thought. Then, i know she's from YiChang where is my university in. I didn't tell her this, because I heard her study in ZheJiang University for master degree. I was so adore her. We often together, but I never dream I will chase her.
This year, I failed to join some company which i want join. I have no idea to work, and even got a D in quarter self-assessment. Everyday I thought about her. On 1 of June I sent a short message to her, I hope her always like a child and happy for ever. I was so exciting that she call me and ask if I have changed my job. Next day, I ask her for dinner, she accept and very happy. At that time, I decided I must chase her and take care of her, I thougt only I can take care of her...
Last week I ask her to skate, beacuase she said she like skate but afraid break. I said I will alway beside her and protect her. After, I treat her to Kentuchy fried chicken, we talked so much. But time passed quickly, I had to sent her back to school.
Yesterday, I also treat her to dinner, she accepted, she was a bit angry because I was latter, the traffic were too heavy. I ask if her has time on Sunday, I want take she to a party, she rejected. She said her boyfriend will back on Sunday, she will help him to clean his house. Before, I never heard her talk about her boy friend, and I think it's normal, because a girl like her, beautiful, goodness... Maybe many boy chase her. I didn't mind. I love her also, and I will take her from her boyfriend.
But, after dinner, She suggested we go to a milktea bar to chat. To my surprise, I even can't believe my ears. She said much. She asked whom I live for, and she sometimes want to die. She feel nothing in the world, but for her parents, she have to live, and marry, and have a baby...
I feel i like to cry, outside she give people impression of opimism and happy, but inside she was so pain. Suddently,.............................I want to understand her. I feel I don't understand her. ............
End, I don't know what i should do....she was so helpless. what should i do?
